Vent. Scan Results

Evan's Vent. Scan went better than it ever has last Thursday. He knew the minute we pulled into the parking garage where we were and began asking the questions, "Am I'm going to get a shot", "Will they squirt stuff in my nose?" The older he gets the more my heart aches at his little questions and eyes, he asked me, "Mommy, why do you and Daddy bring me here?" Oh little braveheart, if I could keep from bringing you here I would but how do you explain??? I just told him that to keep well sometimes you have to have tests and see doctors to stay well. He perked up once we got inside and sang all sorts of songs for the nurses - he LOVES to sing - don't know where he got that from *wink*. He use to love Bear and the Big Blue house when he was little and we found a dvd of it that has all to do with doctors, appointments, shots and hospitals way back. Weird but Evan found that dvd and asked to watch it on Wed. night and he learned a song, "just say ouch, say it now, just say ouch and it's over" he sang that through tears during his IV, which by the way amazingly the nurse got with one stick! I could have kissed her! When the nurses came in to give him the Versed up the nose he said, "Stop right there, I do not like doctors, I do NOT like doctors, I DO NOT LIKE DOCTORS!" Poor thing - he just wanted to make sure they knew. The actual test only takes about 15-20 min. and about 10 min. into it Evan's blood pressure dropped to 104/33 - they believe he just had a reaction to the meds so they turned it off and it came back up. They used Dex. to sedate him they gave him Versed up the nose and a shot of it before they started the Dex. and I remember him having a blood pressure drop after his surgery when they used Versed, so I'm going to say something to the pc. Since they turned the sedation off before the test was over Evan woke up almost as soon as the test was over and we went home within the half hour. Usually Evan is pretty "drunk" and sleepy for the rest of the day, I'm not sure if they used less meds or if turning it off early made a difference but Evan acted like nothing had happened. He begged to ride his bike when we got home - they told us he would sleep for 3-8 hours. I kept trying to keep him quiet and watch tv but it was obvious that he was fine - running, jumping and so we just quit trying - I was calling giving grandparents the news of the day and they were like, "what's Evan doing?" - "oh just riding his bike" I could not believe it!
Evan's pc in on vacation but another pc in his office called and said that the pressure have dropped 5% since the stent - after the stent the right side was taking 71% of the pressure and the right side 29% and now it is 76% to the right and 24% to the left. The pc that called said that he is not concerned with these results and that he would turn them over to Dr. McOmber when he returns and that Dr. McOmber will be calling to let us know. I'm not sure when it will be time for the cath. again as the left side before the stent was only taking 15% of the pressure - so it has been worse - how far does it drop before the stent needs to be expanded? I'm not sure. My anxiety and worry tends to get the best of me and I hate that I let my worries steal my joy and I'm trying really hard to live for today - it's so hard. After the results came in I called and cancelled a cruise that my husband and I had scheduled for our anniversary - I just can't - I dont' know who we were kidding that we could leave him for a week when we have never even left him overnight. I hope that I didn't disappoint Eric too much, I just couldn't go through with it.

Bye Bye Juice

I can't believe I'm sharing this BUT... here goes. Evan is very attached to his "juice" (4 oz. Avent Bottle with water in it) he asks for it every nap time and bedtime also if he is scared or upset. He gave up the milk bottle pretty easily and on time but loved I mean LOVED his "juice." I talked to his pedi. about it and his pc - and everytime they would say that we needed to get him off of it he would have a procedure coming up and they would say to keep letting him have it. Like last April we were going to take it away and then the pc said to keep letting him have it as he knew that is the ONLY thing that calms him down and wanted something to calm him after his cath. So.... it's almost one year later and yeah, he still loves his "juice." I had decided that we would throw away all extra's so we wouldn't be tempted and just let the current "juice" wear out. Last Thursday I went to pick Evan up after work and my mom just stood there - looking very tired holding the "juice" with the nipple hanging by a thread and Evan crying at her feet pitifully. He said so sadly, "Mommy look, look at what happened to my juice." I felt so sad for him, Mom later told me she thought of going to get a new one but knew I would be able to tell. He has gotten much enjoyment from that little bottle - I'm putting a slide show together to prove that he was in LOVE with it. Anyway, no turning back huh? That night at bedtime I got out all his usual sippy cups and reminded him that "juice" was broke and that he needed to pick something else out to drink "juice" aka water in (we had tried this before but, he did not see the evidence and did not go for it). He picked out a Nuby cup from Wal-mart and although he has talked about his broke "juice" he has not asked for it since! I'm amazed and cannot believe that we are actually through with "juice!"
Evan's Vent. Perf. Scan is next Thur., the 22nd. Pray for a good outcome and some more time before another procedure needs to be done. Mostly for wisdom of the Dr.'s, whom we love, and their finding the right time that's needed for Evan to expand the stent and repair the leaky valve. Pray for us too - as this will be the first procedure without "juice" LOL.

Updates on Yesterday

Well, our big day is over and I'm thankful that for the most part everything is well. My 2nd cousin's baby - Evelynn had her cath. and did well - they are scheduling her surgery within the next 2 weeks and we should know the exact date by Monday. My cousin, Eric, had his surgery and they removed a 2 lb. cancerous tumor that was contained in his right kidney - the doctor said the cancer had not spread and that he believes he will NOT require chemo or radiation but will know for sure next week when the results come back from pathology.

Evan's appointment went well. Dr. McOmber said that if someone handed him the EKG he would not think it was for a person with a CHD that had repair OHS for TOF - perfectly normal! He said that Evan looks and sounds amazing BUT that although he can see the blood flow in the left pulmonary artery that the only way to be sure the pressure's are still acceptable since the stent implementation last April is to do another Ventilation Perfusion Scan - ARGH! He said that they have to keep an eye on this in order to keep Evan well that, this is not looking for somthing wrong but to just to maintain they will have to check the pressures every so often. He said that if this Vent. Perf. Scan shows the same results as last time (I'll have to go back and look but I think it was 71% to the right, 29% to the left after the stent, pre-stent 85%-r and 15%-l) than maybe we can just check it once a year. If the results are not as good as the scan they did last July than that would mean back to the cath. lab to widen the stent some more. So, all in all it is really good news I just hate that they will have to put him to sleep for this test and I can only imagine knowing how last time went how upset Evan was, that when he realizes where we are and what is happening he will lose it. He is older and he asks lots of questions to which we will have to be truthful with him about - he will be so upset about getting an IV and it's so hard to watch how he fights the sedation. After such a long day yesterday and my emotions being on edge I sat down to watch my favorite show, Grey's Anatomy, and man did I let loose - I cried and cried and cried. The Vent. Perf. Scan will be scheduled on Mon. so hopefully we can do this soon and go on the once a year scan.

Big Day Tomorrow

Tomorrow is a big day for my family. First of all Evan has a cardio checkup tomorrow afternoon - we are expecting good news as things have been going well but, you know how that goes. Secondly my 2nd cousin's baby - Evelynn - was born with a CHD and is having a cath. done tomorrow - she is not thriving - weighs 9 lbs. and is 5 months old and they are expecting her surgery to be very soon. Lastly another cousin of mine - Eric - is the same age as me and is having his kidney removed tomorrow after a growth has been found but is contained in his kidney - we will not know more until the kidney is removed. We are in the process of getting our pictures off the old computer and purchasing a new one but are doing without in the meantime in hopes to find a good deal (except for limited computer use at work). I promise to post some pic's as soon as I can.

Beautiful CHD Awareness Week Poem

Somewhere...someplace... today...
A family is waiting to hear...
Is something wrong with their baby?
The answers aren't quite clear...
This family has entered an unwanted world...
And they just don't know what to expect...
Somewhere...someplace... today
They first heard the words: heart defect.
And how they hoped this was not true...
And thought... this cannot be...
I too... know just how this feels...
For one day...this was me.

Somewhere...someplace...today...
A man and a woman embrace...
Their baby is in surgery...
They long to see her face...
They haven't got to hold her yet...
Without...a cord or line...
They pace the room awaiting news...
And hope she'll be just fine.
Prayers fill this busy waiting room...
And mom and dad are scared...
Somewhere...someplace..today...
The tiniest hearts are repaired.

Somewhere...someplace...today...
A child's growing fast...
Smiling,laughing,thriving...
His mom thinks...can this last?
It's almost easy...to forget...
That anything is wrong...
Somewhere...someplace..today...
Her child seems so strong.

Somewhere...someplace... today...
A little boy fights...just to live
A father holds his tiny hand...
His love...all he can give...
The doctor's are all baffled...
They fear that he might die...
Somewhere...someplace...today...
A family says goodbye...

Somewhere...someplace...each year..
More than 40,000 families will see...
What it means...when something's wrong...
They'll face a CHD.
Today...for just a moment...
Stop...remember...reflect...
Make time to tell someone you know...
"I've been changed by a heart defect".

Author - Stephanie Husted

Happy Birthday Evan!

Three years ago today we were oblivious, oblivious to parenthood, to CHD's, to raising a boy, to the Love we would could only imagine this miracle would bring us. I've told his birth story before so I won't get into that but, I could have never imagined the Love I would feel for my son - I knew I would Love him but it's so much deeper than I can explain. What did we do before we had him??? What in the world would we do without him??? He fills our days with smiles and sighs (what in the world will this boy do next!) Tomorrow Evan will be 3 yrs. old - my time flies - it doesn't seem possible that he could already be 3 and starting preschool in the Fall, sniff sniff. He's been asking me to make up stories to tell him at night and they usually involve Kings, Knights and Dragons that learn to share (he's a bit selfish) but a few nights ago I told him the story of how God gave me and Daddy a miracle and we named him Evan. Last night he asked me to tell him the "Miracle Story" so I did and after story time we said our prayers and Evan prayed, "Dear God thank for the bestest party ever and for the miracle named Evan" LOL. I just said, "Yes, thank you God for the miracle named Evan." I'm still without a computer the "investigator" hasn't come out to take a look yet. I will be posting lots and lots of pictures when I am finally up and running again. Evan's b-day party was a huge success. Despite the snow we had a good turn-out of 9 kids and they all played until they could play no longer - it was so much fun, "the bestest party ever." I wish I could make this time go a little slower - I'm sure that next year I'll be saying again how time flies!

Investigation

On Thur. night I signed on to my computer while Evan was taking a bath and went through our digital pic's since Christmas and picked a few to post. I didn't get to finish so, I decided on Fri. night I would make time to post some new pic's. Back to Thur. - when we got home there was a notice from our electric company that there would be electrical work done in our neighborhood on Fri. and that they were sorry for the inconvienance - no big deal - we would be at work anyway. Eric and I trade off responsibilities of bath and bed so technically it was my night for bath on Fri. but, I explained to him about the lack on pic's on the blog and he happily swapped me nights so, off to the office I went to post some pic's. I hit the button and nothing - just blinking - immediately my mind thought back to the electrical work notice and called my sister-in-law/computer repair woman and she gave me some tips to try but after telling her about the electrical work she said that it sounded like my power supply and board were blown by a power surge (computer was on a power surge protector) and to contact the electrical company. I called this morning and they said that there was a problem when trying to turn the electrical back on on Friday and that they were going to send an "investigator" to take a look at the computer. Let's keep our fingers crossed that they replace it and also that our harddrive is saved as the pictures we've taken since Christmas are not backed up on CD! Until then I'm restricted to checking on blog's and email during break and lunch at work.

Train Wreck Causes Evacuation

Things have been crazy around here - there was a huge train wreck in Shepherdsville KY which is only about 5 miles from my work - less than 3 miles from my parents home - very close. It happened Tue. morning after I had dropped Evan off and gotten to work. The area had to be evacuated - because of winds sending the toxic fumes the opposite direction we were all able to stay put. However, I was unable to get home as the main interstate had to be shut down for 12 hours and all traffic coming in and out of Louisville was forced to take 2 roads and there was a 4 hour delay - so my usual 1/2 hr. commute would have been 4 1/2 hrs. long so we camped out at my parents and watched the TV for possible evacuation orders. The train wreckage is still burning this morning at what they call a controlled burn, as it is a gas and they are unable to just put it out, it has to burn out. There are a lot of efforts going on to speed up the process and they are saying that sometime today it should be through burning. It was unbelievable to see - the plume of smoke is still billowing into the air and everyone is staying indoors as much as possible as the fumes are toxic and burn your eyes. On Tuesday night the people who had exposure and needed hospital treatment were being undressed in a tent outside of the hospital and then hosed down and put into paper gowns before being allowed into the hospital - just unbelievable! Things seem to be better today - so maybe the people who are in shelters will be allowed to go home - although they say some people might actually lose their homes because of the toxins their homes were exposed to. On a brighter note - the weather is doing what it is supposed to here in the Bluegrass the last few days - it has turned cold! They are forcasting snow for the weekend and I for one am looking forward to it!
http://www.whas11.com/topstories/stories/011607whasbhTopTrainCrash.4658e9f1.html
http://www.wave3.com/Global/story.asp?S=5944082

Catch Up

Sorry I haven't posted in while - I've kept up with everyone else but when I logged in a few times to post I stared at the screen and logged out - why post when nothing comes to mind??? My brother and I agree that we have the New Years blah's. You know - Christmas is over, the running has ended, now what? Believe me I have plenty to do, spring cleaning, etc. etc. but, I've just been in a rut.
One thing I am excited about is Evan's Birthday party that is coming up. We are having it at The Playground http://www.theplaygroundlouisville.com/ . I think he will be surprised and I'm in love with the, they clean up the mess part! I found this cute t-shirt at Target that is a black short sleeve with attached white long sleeve underneath that has a stick man on it that says, "I Do All My Own Stunts" LOL. You usually dress your little one up for their birthday but for The Playground I think this is more fitting and definately more "Evan".
Not sure if you all have heard about us losing our football coach - UofL. This song, "Bad Day Bobby" was on the radio today regarding that and it is hilarious : P .
http://www.themaxfm.com/Article.asp?PT=Lambert+and+Lindsey+Blog&id=330770

Tagged by Krystal

A-Available or single? Married
B- Best Friend? Kelley (since, well forever)
C- Cake or pie? Cake (with coffee)
D- Drink of choice? Coffee or Diet Coke
E- Essential item I use every day? My Cell Phone
F- Favorite color: Purple/Blue/Green
G- Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms? Neither really but I use to like Gummy Worms
H- Hometown? Louisville, KY
I- Indulgence: This week it's peanut butter fudge - Christmas candies are killing my diet
J- January or February? February (Evan's birthday is February 6th)
K- Kids and names: Evan Thomas
L- Life is incomplete without? Family
M-Marriage date: May 20th 2000
N- Number of siblings: Legit or not? 1 Brother, legit.
O- Oranges or apples? Apples - when I was pregnant I ate an apple every night
P- Phobias or fears? Being alone all night in a house - I'm serious
Q- Favorite quote? "Lupe, leave the sheep alone, NOWAH!" from Tuna Christmas
R- Reasons to smile: My miracle from God, Evan
S- Season: Fall in Kentucky with all the beautiful leaves
T- Tag 3 or 4 people. Not sure how many bloggers read this still but, Michael, Erika and Becky (family you can send this in email!)
U- Unknown fact about me: I sang for President Bush at the 2001 Inauguration
V- Vegetable you don’t like: I love veggies but I do NOT like creamed corn - YUCK!
X- X-Rays: I'm assuming this means that you have had taken - my teeth before a cleaning??? If it's our opinion about them - some of my worst memories of Evan's hospital stay has to do with the x-ray lab
Y- Your favorite food? Mexican
Z- Zodiac: Sagittarius

I'll post some Christmas pic's and stories tomorrow.

Feeling Better

Thanks to everyone that left a Get Well message and prayed for Evan this past week. He is FINALLY starting to feel better. He ran a fever for about 4 days and had this horrible cough, I mean horrible can't believe that's coming from him cough. I had to take him back to the pedi. on Thur. and they gave him a stronger cough medicine w/ codeine. That at least helped him sleep through the night. They say Evan has a strong gag reflex and that is why he vomits so much, I have heard this is common with heart kids. He can vomit after every cough, he coughs and gags and then vomits. It's pretty bad when your 2 year old carries a cup around to drink after every cough and runs to the bathroom if he feels like he's going to puke! He did keep up his imagination though - around Wed. he started having diarrhea from not eating and only drinking and all that flem. This is the first time since being potty trained that he has had that so when he went to the bathroom he was a little startled - he hollared for me and when I got in the bathroom I told him it was okay that it was happening b/c he was sick and he said, "No Mommy, I just had a river come out of my butt" I cracked up at his explanation of it and then he topped it off by saying, "waterfalls too, I can't wait to go to Mamaw's tomorrow and tell her I had 3 waterfalls come out of my butt." He's a hoot. Hope everyone is ready for Christmas - 6 day's left!!!

Christmas Portraits

Finally got Evan's Christmas pic's back. The 3 yr. old fake smile was in almost every picture but the two above were more "Evan" than the fake smile ones. Evan has been sick since Mon. with what started as a cough and now is accompanied with a fever. He went to the doctor yesterday and they said he had an upper respiratory infection and put him on an antibiotic and cough medicine. It was wierd last night he went into a coughing fit after I gave him the cough medicine - Argh! He was up and down most of the night coughing and wanting to be held. Say a prayer that he feels better by the weekend so he doesn't miss out on some Christmas parties!

Thoughts for today

Several of the kiddos on my TOF Yahoo support group have had their surgery this week and my prayers and thoughts have been with them and their families.
It snowed here this morning - just a dusting but none the less it was snow. Evan was so excited, he asked me if that meant Santa was coming! I can't wait for Christmas this year. It was fun last year but, he is so so excited this year. I'm wondering how in the world we will get his train table set up and not wake him up.
I felt like crying today - I called and enrolled Evan in preschool. He doesn't start until the next school year - Aug. 2007 so, it's a ways off. It is a Christian preschool that is very close to our church and my parents home so they can pick him up. This school has come highly recommended from a few of our friends who already have or have had kids there. I'm so sad just thinking of him growing up, but also excited that Evan will get to be around other kid's more. The school is 4 days a week but you can send them as little or as much as you like so I believe we will start with just 2 days. My mom will enjoy the break but I know will miss him like crazy.
My baby is growing up!!!

New Pic's

See below pictures of Evan's little Sunday School class singing "This Little Light of Mine." What sweethearts! Evan did sing but, only when they placed the microphone in front of him and the rest of the time he stuck his tongue out!









We decorated our house on Sunday and Evan loved helping ; ) he hang all of the ornaments that he got out of the box on the same limb ; 0 I tried moving them when he wasn't looking but he knew and he would say, "Mommy that one was mine and I want it here!"

Thankful

We were on the holiday run all last week so this has been my first chance to do a Thankful post. I'm known in my family for being full of drama and a bit of a complainer - hey, I'm being honest here. Although this is probably true, there are many times after the drama ends and the complaints are voiced that I sit back and see how truly blessed I am. Several topics come to mind that I'm thankful for this year. First of all is my faith in Jesus Christ - I know that I would not have made it through the last few years without my faith in him. I have failed him more often than I care to admit here but I'm thankful for his saving grace and like I said when the complaints are voiced I often turn to prayer and am reminded that there is so so much to be thankful for. Evan - I'm so thankful for my beautiful little boy. He smiles, his hugs, his smooches, everything about having him in my life has made me a better person. Just last night I told him this Friday I would take him to see Santa Clause and he started naming off everything he would tell him he wanted and then he turned to me and said, "Mommy, I'll tell him you want that new vacuum cleaner (Dyson)" I was so touched that he remembered me saying something about that. He can certainly be a handful but a sweetie too! Two Sunday's ago his Sunday School class sang "This Little Light of Mine" in the service and tears filled my eyes seeing our little miracle up there singing away with all the other kids - what a gift he is! It has been a hard few years for my husband and I as far as our relationship goes - I'm so thankful that we stuck together and made it through such a hard time in our lives and that we never gave up. We were always the couple everyone envied and when we started our CHD journey with our only child we lost sight of each other and I'm thankful we found it again. I'm thankful for many other things but the last I'll go into detail here is I'm so very thankful for my Mom. My Mom without many complaints, keeps Evan everyday so I can work and help Eric provide a home and insurance for our family. This has been such a blessing to us to know that he is cared for by someone we trust completely just minutes from my work. He loves being with his Mamaw, Thank you Mom.
Hoping all of you had a wonderful Thanksgiving! Blogger is being a pain - so I'll have to post some new pic's later.

P.S. Becky - I'm so sorry we were unable to get together while you were in town - my parents decided to have their Thanksgiving on Fri. so we were there all day and then we had family members that came in from out of town Sat. for a surprise b-day party for an Aunt. I hope you all had a great time visiting with your family and a safe trip home.

Good News

Just got home from our appt. with Evan's cardio, Dr. McOmber. He said that everything looked great on all reports (EKG, echo and listening)! He also told us that because Evan's heart looks so good that we can quit the Digoxin and Aspirin - don't know quite what to think about this yet as we have been on both for so long, especially the Digoxin - since Evan's surgery 2 years ago he has been on the Digoxin all but one month (they quit the Dig. at one year post op and then our very next appt. is when that pesky pulmonary artery showed narrowness so they put him back on it.) I did mention the out of breath and Dr. McOmber said that again, Evan's heart looked wonderful and that he would mention it to the pedi. just in case it had to do with possible allergies/asthma. They did send him home with his yearly holter - fun, fun. He said we had to get at least six hours of recording to not have to do it again so I'm praying that he will leave it alone at least until morning! Enjoy the pic's from our Huber's Orchard trip and some pic's of Evan and his beloved cardio, Dr. McOmber.

Cardio Appt. this Thur.

I've been busy the past few day's with Eric gone, trying to keep Evan entertained when he is bored of me and wants his daddy! I took the day off yesterday and took him to Huber's Orchard and we did all kinds of fun stuff even though it was crazy cold up there. I'll update pic's from that when I get home tonight. It was kinda sad, Evan wanted to throw a penny into the wishing well and wished for his daddy to come home. He is so not use to not seeing both of us everyday and Eric has been gone since last Fri. I'm so thankful my mom has stayed with us and kept us company! I'm sure she's ready to be rid of us!!! A fellow heart friend had his 3rd b-day party last Sun. and Evan had a blast, they had the Tumblebus come and stay for an hour - (Tumblebus is a school bus that has been gutted and has a springy floor, slide, trampoline, monkey bars and just lots of fun stuff inside) - Happy Birthday Lucas!!! Evan has a cardio. appt. this Thur. and I'm anxious to see how things are going - things on the outside appear to be going great other than some out of breath moments when he is really playing hard ~ any other heart parents kids have this symptom - Evan has always gotten out of breath when he is really jumping and running around and they have said before that he might have asthma but I've also heard that is a sign of the pulmonary artery narrowing (which was stented last April) and not enough blood going to the lungs and that this could be serious so I'm definately going to bring it up at his cardio appt. They had said that he might come off of Digioxin and aspirin if things looked good at this appt. so I'm looking at the Dig. bottle this morning and thinking we don't have enough to last until Thur. - might have to buy another bottle even though we might be done with it. It might snow this Thur., I can't believe it! Evan thinks if it snows that it means Santa is coming!!!

Make Believe Friends

Just had to do a quick post and say that Evan came into the office tonight while I was investigating Judge candidates for the election tomorrow and told me that, "OG and OV are in the hall and we need to go talk to them," I asked him who is OG and OV and he said they were his friends and asked if he could call them so I handed him a phone and he said, "Hi OG are you here" then asked me, "Mommy do you see them?" I'm thinking ummmmm..... no and then he asked if he could make a card for them. After coloring a nice card he told me that him and OG were ready for a bath!!! Where is this coming from??? Anyway, just had to make a quick note of this, I've got to go give OG and Evan a bath!!!

Sorry so much silence this past week or so and for no pictures from our celebration for Evan's 2 year post-op. It rained so hard that I thought I was going to have to turn around and go home and ruin my diet by Evan and I eating all those cupcakes myself!!! It was all I could do to grab the container of cupcakes and Evan and run in the doctors office - we still got soaked!! Besides, Evan's beloved cardio - Dr. McOmber was busy with a patient and we weren't even able to see him so we visited with the nurses and then went on to the pedi. to drop their treats off. When I got to the pedi. the nurse said, "Oh, hi I was just getting ready to call you b/c we finally got the flu shot in for Evan's age and weight group - do you want to do it while your here?" I had been waiting for that to arrive and didn't want them to run out and Evan not get it so I agreed. When Evan found out we were staying there for a reason other than delivering treats he was soooo upset. He kept crying and crying and saying, "Mommy you said we were delivering treats - no shots!!!!" I'm sure when all was said and done that everyone at that office was glad to see us go and I was glad to go! It was fun but I could have done without the rain and the flu shot! We have a busy week coming up - Daddy and Papaw leave for their yearly hunting trip this Fri. and will be gone for a week! Mamaw and I will be staying together and enjoying some shopping, Evan willing, and not cooking! I look forward to this time I get to spend with my mom but it always makes me realize how much I depend on Eric, I'm going to miss him. Evan's checkup with the cardio is on the 16th of this month so pray that things are still going well and that he can possibly come off of Aspirin and Digoxin. His little legs are so bruised from jumping around and just playing rough he is all boy, he bruises so easily!

2 year Post-op Anniversary Today!!!

I cannot believe it has already been two years ago today that we handed our little Braveheart over to Dr. Austin for repair for Tetralogy of Fallot. Last night I was thinking back to the night before and how we took pictures of Evan all day long and told him he was going on a mended heart trip. I remember when we left pre-op that day that we let him have ice-cream and took pictures with his pumpkin in his costume since we would be in the hospital for Halloween. I remember rocking him to sleep and singing to him and once he had fallen to sleep rocking him and praying to God to please protect him and to let the surgery be a success and to protect the surgeon and Eric coming in and telling me to lay him down and us both sobbing once leaving his room at what tomorrow would hold. Worrying that he would wake up after midnight and want a bottle and what in the world we would do. Thankfully he slept that night. I remember trying real hard to be strong walking into the hospital that morning and looking around the waiting room and wondering if everyone else was as scared as we were. Things went fast after we went back and they anesthesiologist came and said we'll be ready in just a few minutes and all I wanted to do was run with my baby. They came and I thought I would collapse watching them walk away with him. Heart families also have their own waiting room so we went there where friends and family were waiting for us and we waited. The first update I will never forget, the nurse came in and told us that Dr. Austin had rocked Evan to sleep, that meant so much to us to know he was being cared for in such a compassionate way. We held our breath for the hourly updates from our nurse and when they came with news we prayed and then began the wait again. Seeing him for the first time after surgery was scary. I looked beyond the wires and tubes and saw my little baby and began to sing our song that we always sang to the tune of "Que Sara, Sara", "When I was just a little boy, I asked my mommy what will I be, will I be handsome, will I be bright and here is what she said to me, Hey Evan, Evan, whatever will be will be, the future's not our's to see, Evan, Evan what will be will be." The next few days were rough and I became addicted to the monitors and drove the PICU crazy and then just six days later we were headed home.

Eric and I watched the HBO film, "Something the Lord Made" last night and after the movie was over I just kept thinking, "Wow, we have those two men who innovated heart surgery that our little braveheart is alive today." Great movie and I highly recommend you heart families out there to get it. Tomorrow I have the day off and Evan and I are delivering muffins and cupcakes to the Doctors that are over Evan's care. Evan is excited to see Dr. McOmber, his beloved cardio.

Today is an important day for another reason, It is Eric's 33rd Birthday!!! When they called 2 years ago and told us the date I just looked at Eric like ??? and he instantly said, "This will be the best birthday present ever!" That is him, my unselfish husband that thinks of Evan and I before himself always. So tonight we are celebrating with his favorite dish and cake and then tomorrow night with his extended family. Happy 33rd Birthday Eric, we love you!